I want to make myself clear: I have no interest in God or religion, and I don't care who knows it. As far as I'm concerned, God doesn't exist, and this life is all there is. Don't even bother to write me back, because I'm not interested.
To be frank, it sounds to me as if down inside you actually do know that God exists; otherwise, why would you be fighting so strenuously against Him and trying to keep Him out of your life? Or why would you even bother to write me?
After all, why fight against something (or Someone) that doesn’t even exist (as you claim)? If you were really convinced God didn’t exist, the logical thing for you to do would be to ignore Him. But you aren’t ignoring Him – and the more you fight against God, the more you are in danger of persuading yourself that He actually does exist.
Have you ever honestly asked yourself why you don’t believe in God? I’m sure you could list many “reasons” why you’ve rejected Him; most professed atheists can. But are they the real reason? I doubt it. I suspect the real reason you’ve rejected God is because you want to be free to run your own life – and you know that won’t be possible once you admit God exists.
You may have rejected God – but He has not rejected you! He loves you and yearns for you to come to Him and discover the peace and hope that come from knowing Christ. Jesus was God in human flesh, and He came to show us what God is like. The Bible says, “No one has ever seen God, but God the One and Only (Son), who is at the Father’s side, has made him known” (John 1:18)