I've always said I'd never go into a nursing home, but after I broke my hip I didn't have any choice. Why did God let this happen to me? I've always wanted to be independent in my old age, and now I'm not, and I don't like it.
I can understand your frustration; as I’ve grown older, I too have missed the strength and independence I once had. I often think of Jesus’ words to Peter concerning his latter years: “When you are old… someone else will dress you and lead you where you do not want to go” (John 21:18).
Old age inevitably brings limitations to us; they may be delayed in some people, but if we live long enough they’ll catch up with us. That’s simply the way life is, much as we try to fight it or deny it. But the real question is this: How will we deal with this? Will it be with anger and frustration and depression — or will it be with acceptance and contentment, even thanksgiving?
Instead of being resentful toward God and blaming Him for what’s happened to you, I hope instead that you’ll see it as part of God’s plan for this stage of your life. God’s plan isn’t always easy or pleasant — but it’s right, because He knows what’s best for us. It may be hard at first, but take time daily to thank Him for the gift of another day. May you be able to say with Paul, “I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances” (Philippians 4:11).
Above all, turn your mind toward your real home — which is heaven. Put your faith and trust in Christ, and then look forward to that day when you will be with Him forever.